Blogger Hibernation

I think I'm ready to come out of blogger hibernation.  I started this blog knowing that my audience was "me."  I thought a few people here and there might read it, but really it was for me to express my feelings and in many ways, this blog became my friend.  The friend I could tell anything to, share anything with, without judgement.  Ironically, I have been saying for the past few months that I have been hesitating to write because I was nervous about Sadie's article and I knew the blog would be mentioned, I didn't know who would be reading it after it was in the paper.  


But I just realized that might have had nothing at all to do with my lack of posting.  I just now in the last 3 minutes and the previous paragraph realized that I haven't been sharing because I didn't need to.  


In the past 3 months I bonded with two of the most amazing women. They see me truer than anyone ever has..they both have children with special needs and they know exactly what life is like.  The unspoken connection that the three of us share has brought a sense of peace to the craziness called my life.  I have spent the past 5 years isolated from nearly everyone and I just now realized how much happiness they have brought to my life.I realized just how lonely I have been.  We have been sharing everything with each other and it feels good to have such wonderful friends.


We meet for coffee, or share a meal, we cry through movies, and we even give support with hugs and crying together.  We know each other, we KNOW.  With a look, a phone call, or a text, I know I've got friends for life.  


And so I'm ready to come out of blogger hibernation because I have a lot to share now, wonderful things have been happening and I feel like I'm living again.  And so the sequence of events that keep leading me to something new all started right here with this blog, this friend that I counted on and I could tell anything to, all thanks to Sadie giving me a new perspective on life and taking nothing for granted.  


I'm looking forward to sharing more....for starters....Have you seen the movie Extraordinary Measures with Brendan Frasier and Harrison Ford?  The movie was inspired by the true story about the Crowley Family in the novel The Cure by Geeta Anand.  John Crowley also wrote a memoir, Chasing Miracles.  Anyway, our local children's hospital is hosting its annual bioethics conference and John Crowley is the key note speaker for the day.  Anyway, as one thing has lead to another, as it always will, I was asked to sit on the parent panel at the conference.  Anyone that knows me knows that I'm pretty shy, so the thought of sitting on a stage in front of 200 heath professionals scares the @#$% out of me.  Thankfully, I have several more weeks to calm my nerves and read The Cure.  Chasing Miracles was powerful and hit home.
Looking forward to more blogging....